...you don't see this everyday..

yup..another day , another new event is going on... well I'm in the cadet training force , I've....... "been selected" (terpaksa) in some "volunteer participation event... crap thing"... for open day that is... nothing is new..... just that you see things differently... got batik.... art and crafts... st.johns... cadets... demostration , speech wuteva..... it's a similar speech from senior assistant which involved the dead genius like thomas geperson .... and others just to illusionise his speech... which... I ... didn't .... give .... a .... damn....





o..k.. back to the topic... open day , which the cadets had to demostrate our little ...."demostration" to the nut cases... then so... we "suppose" to march or perform in a ..... standart formation or ....sumting.... and it didn't end well as ...... any1 expected.... which... have to demo "to" the parents .... but since they r 2 busy drinking FREE coffee... they didn't give a damn about the demo , which make things more easier & less tension .... with only 2 commanders ..... and 9 cadets.... yup..... it ended quite well wif a bit screwed but no1 giv a damn....






at the same time , took pictures.... juz to remember this ...... experience ...without... 1 .....

o...k... as you can ...see .. if you can... i saw J-1 pissing at that corner .... but suddenly this fella came and.... wanted to in that ...obscene ... moment... NAH tipu la... he wuz juz tighten up his pants.... well , tat wuz wat make you think .... seeing it the first time without read ...this....

o...k.. i know wut yur thinking & i dun wanna know.... but it look like he's trying to "prove" sumthing at libby..... which totaly freak her ...out.... nah i also dunno wat de hell's going on there.... (BEFORE)
[libby: =.=""]

o...k... for GOD'S sake.... dun think sumthing shit or obscene.... @ tat time he juz wanna .... strip himself... the thing is tat might disapointed you... is tat he's wearing extra shirt inside.... sad izn't it? (AFTER)

[libby > pretend not to be.... interested...]

yup.... that's all for.... (today)... then .... nothing , all the cadets left early... 4 hrs early.... which not trying to escape but to avoid... work.....

... screwed... sufferings... death...

yup.... damn myself... and just to think I can do better for the exams.... I'm starting despice confident... It screwed my thoughts of my thinking and answering... Why do I have confident if the goal I seek it's just right in front of me?? WTF.... and I failed to see it... I'm so blind.... blind untill I keep seeing myself rotten to death in front of a mirror... keep hearing dead voices.. screaming in agony and suffering... it feels like one damn day... when that's the time there's someone is gonna stab me through my heart... It gives me the chills when I had visions or dreams... witness of my very own hard cold... slow , unbearable pain of suffering death... When there's a time I'll meet my maker , where hopefully he'll answer my questions... of this misguided being in existance... still , I beginning to feel no regrets of my actions... no mercy , no pity of it... that 'till one day , the gates of hell will open up for me...

so... if your reading this , I know what your thinking , i know what you feeling right now... disgusted , confused(keep questioning yourself) , or even get emotional about it... well... for your infomation... who would give a damn about me if I'm useless to anyone? well , please don't get upset , don't say that friends or family are important to me... it's the same excuse since when I was a young child... and yet... it's true... I've got nothing to say to against it... I felt damn useless right now... can't even think stright...

... what would happen to me in the future? well , isn't that one of the questions that god himself is forbidden to answer that right?

SO... for friends... better hurry up & work really hard .... BEFORE I DIE.......

.....finally updated...

yes... finally got some time to update....
-Well... mid-year test , got abit screwed up... how? i dun wanna tell you....
-slowly got addicted to DMC 3 .... it rulez~ i've never played such violence in the pc version of dmc3...
the vergil char , got the wierd costume , when he changed into Murdel (or sumthing...) like dmc 2....
it's freaking bloody whack game to play...but suddenly... DMC 4 ....only came out for the ps3?? WTF??
when are they coming out for the pc?? well for you infomation , ps3 = GeForce 10 , current latest graphic cards = GeForce 850... what the hell...... must be too good damn graphics....

Anyways....

-total screwed up for BM lisan presentation... my friend informed to the teacher regardings his absense
of mon school..i think it's (30th of april if i'm not mistaken..) well... the teacher totaly forgoten about
him & accussing of his absense without informations... so..... dunno wat happended la.... i also dun wan
to noe bout this situation... it's between him & the teacher... but then... "that" day , he told me to replace
my friends's presentation & just get marks while he gets a "zero" ..... wtf... well i can't do anything to help
him eventhough i get myself involved.. (well not much of a help..) so... DUNNO .... DUN CARE ... i onli
felt sorry for taking my fren's work without doing one myself.... realli SRY...

Well still nothing much... nothing's still changed... from the previous post... yup.... nothing changed at
all.... haiz.... from the fact of that...... ahh u dun wana noe...... byez~~

DMC 3 = THIS PARTY'S GETTING CRAZY , LETS ROCK!!!